Hope, Help, and Healing

Yes, there is hope, help, and healing on the other side of the Jehovah's Witnesses (JWs) doomsday table. It's a religion founded on fear and offers little real world value to anyone. It's all about giving your time, money and free labor to a religious organization that has amassed great wealth all based on false hopes and dreams.

It really doesn't matter how you left the organization, the reasons are endless. It also does not matter where you go after leaving the Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society because it means you actually took action and made a decision to just leave and never go back.

The problem many people have when leaving the JWs is that they become stagnate, stuck and can't figure out where to go or what to do next. It hardly matters what age you are when leaving the JWs and that might surprise you because everyone can feel lost and not find their true path in this world.

A lot of people are too scared or embarrassed to seek out help from someone else, to admit not only to themselves that they were stuck with a group of religious zealots, but that as adults, they chose to stay or may have joined as an adult. It is difficult to describe to so-called "outsiders" what it was like behind the walls of the Watchtower. 

So, what next? It's time you go on a journey of self-discovery and yes, self-help. A lot of people just like you are afraid to talk with a stranger about the JWs since they will hardly understand what you've been through. Licensed therapists and counselors have little knowledge about various religious groups and the control they have on the members. Normally, they want to learn from you so they can make more money off of new clients, you being their trainer while you pay them when it should be the other way around. Then that therapist or self-help guru writes a book based on all the information you provided, and you paid them to boot! You end up feeling lost, lonely and empty inside because you were used yet again by an authority figure. First the Elders and leadership of the JWs and now by some guru or therapist that used you and took your money.

There is help available and it's within your easy grasp, just reach out and take it. My advice is only for those who want to move on with their lives and not feel stuck anymore; to see what potential they have, what hidden gifts they may have left far behind and had forgotten once they became indoctrinated JWs.

Here are my suggestions:

Access my Etsy shop link to download your copy of my book. My story is unique and I think you will find it both interesting and helpful to assist you with your own situation. My book provides details of my exit from the Watchtower corporation and how I found my way to personal freedom. It's a PDF copy at a minimal price, much lower than it cost me in time and effort yet it afforded me the opportunity to document some things about my family that I had forgotten and my own self-discoveries about what the JW organization is all about.

Etsy Shop: CollectiblePathways

https://www.etsy.com/listing/876767749/self-help-inspirational-past-perish?ref=shop_home_active_3

Another book suggestion is from the comedian, actor and entertainer, Russell Brand. He helps you deal with any addictions you may have since many JWs have addictions they keep hidden. Addictions to food, liquor, drugs, sex, and anything else which is a hindrance to you and robs you of self-worth. His book can be found by a Google search and is available from many book sellers.

Are you ready to explore your spiritual side and what's beyond the veil? Than Tarot by Melinda is for you. The YouTube channel offers a lot of free advice and suggestions for handling whatever turns up in the cards. Don't be shy, don't be scared. The Governing Body of JWs consult the cards all the time and keep the secrets of Tarot and channeling of spirits a secret to the masses. Why? Because it works; because it's true. Yes, energies shift and change and nothing is set in stone but a little bit of knowledge is a good thing and can be just the nudge you need to move into a positive direction in your life. Go for it; don't be shy. This is your life now, not Watchtower's as their Tarot card is the tower and it will explode leaving its membership buried in the rubble.

Etsy Shop: CollectiblePathways

Purchase a Tarot Card reading and receive a hardcopy via PDF:

https://www.etsy.com/listing/680996424/tarot-horoscope-astrology-zodiac?ref=shop_home_active_10&frs=1&sca=1

Tarot by Melinda - YouTube Channel:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8zbG2XIDBMeGOHYm04xrlA

Ready to talk about real-life problems? Then this former JW is for you. She is very honest, open, and down-to-earth. She was raised a JW and her channel used to be dedicated to her journey out of the Watchtower, but now, she focuses on family, kids, coffee talk, work, relationships, dating, marriage, and anything else you can think of. You will enjoy her podcast and she does personally answer viewers' questions. Give her a listen and I think you will find her very welcoming and also a very positive person in spite of her past.

Ebony Rose 1 0 1 - YouTube Channel:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz3MghoQ70rfBp1PtZESyjA

Do you need to talk with a person that has gone to hell and back? Then Gordon Smith-Duran is your guy. He is a hypnotherapist, language instructor in case you would like to learn Spanish or English, and a self-help guide that does not force feed you anything. You can enjoy his YouTube channel which has several videos especially designed to help JWs leave the organization and move on with their lives. Gordon was born and raised a JW and suffered physical and emotional abuse at the hands of his JW father. Gordon takes clients and provides his email address in the links under his YouTube videos. Consultations are free and if you want to book any formal sessions, he can design a program specifically to meet your needs including your own personal guided meditations that he can craft to meet your specific goals.

Gordon Smith-Duran - YouTube Channel:

https://www.youtube.com/user/WeightReleased/playlists

Don't put your life on hold anymore. Don't throw your money away on people who know little to nothing about real-world problems and your struggles as a JW. Now is the right time to reach out and help yourself. Stop thinking about leaping ahead and skipping steps. You have to realize you were raised differently than others and even if you joined later in life, your brain has been rewired and needs to be unraveled. Don't hesitate; do it now and you can keep it all to yourself and work at your own pace. It's okay, I give you permission to focus on yourself and seek out the help from people who understand your plight. I wish you good luck and much health and happiness on a bright future outside of the walls of the Watchtower.

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#healing #love #manifesting #selfhelp #books #music #wellness

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Moral Code

It seems the Bible has no moral code as anyone can use their favorite translation and see how the world was always filled with violence and immorality with God doing little to nip it in the bud.

They had those ten commandments to follow but when Jesus walked the earth he replaced that with simply saying we must love our neighbor as ourselves and love is the only commandment people need to lead a successful life.

Adam and Eve apparently rushed things with God as God didn't even create a mate for Adam but I guess he insisted on it. Then when they gained forbidden knowledge they were driven out of the Garden of Eden and started having children. Of course the Jehovah's Witnesses (JW) take everything literal in the Bible as in an actual snake was inhabited by the Devil and spoke to Eve goading her into eating of the forbidden fruit that would lead to knowledge of good and bad. Some Bible scholars believe it was her own inner voice goading her on and not a physical being. Why wouldn't the Devil just materialize and start talking with Eve? I guess God Almighty forbade that for awhile, as we know from the Bible stories, eventually the demons made human bodies for themselves and starting mating with the women of the earth. Some suggest that the reason they kept taking different women, was because the women died when giving birth to these oversized giant hybrids. Who knows, but the JWs don't like to start thinking logically about anything in the Bible. They are blind followers without critical thinking skills and the leadership just basically hoard money and keep badgering their membership to give them more and more of the green stuff.

But why does the Watch Tower corporation seem to want to conceal any wrongdoing among their own ranks? Obviously, those who still defend the JW belief system feel that every religious organization has its flaws and flawed people. Even some so-called ex-JWs continue to defend the JW belief system, going so far as to defend the banning of the religion in Russia and in other countries since these so-called ex-JWs have their own agenda which I will not address here and now.

Even though I was born and raised as a JW, I came to realize later in life that my earliest influences were from the Christian Science beliefs, Catholic beliefs and the JWs with my mother having a fascination with the occult, as did her sisters. My paternal grandparents were strict Italian/Catholic and my dad converted to being a JW when he met my mother. My mother was from a background of Freemasons, Catholics and Christian Science before she and her sisters converted to being JWs. Pretty interesting with my mother's background, how easily she merged into the JW belief system since the JWs are simply a hodgepodge of the Freemasons, Christian Science beliefs and copying ancient pagan beliefs that require a blood sacrifice from its membership which has gone unchallenged for decades by their own rank and file followers.

As blogged about here before, anyone can do a quick Google search of the Australian Royal Commission's investigations into institutional child abuse allegations and one of their targets was the JWs. The testimony and proceedings is available online. I find it interesting how the JW leadership cling to a few scriptures which prevents them from revealing any wrongdoing to the authorities, but the cases are handled in-house by a group of Elders having almost zero knowledge of how to handle any problems beyond a child back-talking to their parents.

The JWs wholeheartedly cling to old teachings of the Bible where there had to be eye witnesses to certain crimes or sins before the leaders of the day would step in and take action. Obviously, we are in modern times and can take full advantage of the trained and licensed mental health professionals, law enforcement, etc., when dealing with horrible crimes against children. There are trained professionals who know how to ferret out the truth in any abuse allegations and in most cases, there will be physical evidence a crime and/or sin has occurred. I know the JWs split hairs by saying these are all sins and they may put the perpetrator on probation from Kingdom Hall duties or they can't participate in the recruitment work which is a minor slap on the wrist. The authorities will never be summoned unless the victim wants to deal with that on their own and be ostracized from their congregation.

I found an interesting discussion on this from the website of the former JW Barbara Anderson. I am sure readers are aware of her name, she spoke out against the child abuse among the JWs about 14 years ago and appeared on national television. She used to be a researcher for the Watch Tower corporation at their former headquarters in Brooklyn, New York. She now engages in anti-JW activism.

To access her article about why the JWs hide abuse among their ranks using a few scriptures as their foundation, can be found here:

http://watchtowerdocuments.org/flawed-decree-conceals-criminals/

Yes, the JW leadership hide behind a few scriptures thinking that they still apply in our modern era yet we don't know why they insist on hiding alleged pedophiles among their ranks based on a few scriptures they think still apply today. Are they that afraid of God's wrath if they don't attempt to follow the scriptures and take them literally? What makes them think judicial procedures of thousands of years ago still apply today when we have so many modern advances in forensics, DNA, fingerprinting, on and on, where the proper authorities can find out the truth and put the perpetrator behind bars and get physical and emotional help for the victims. Victims do not need to suffer in silence providing they first leave the JW mindset that the victim is to blame.

I was raised with this belief. Whenever my JW Elder dad would come home with some intel about his latest judicial committee meeting, me and my mom would close ranks and tsk tsk at the victim. Gosh, she deserves that, did you see how she dressed for the Sunday meeting? She's a flirt, thank goodness she was forced to leave our congregation...you get the message, dear reader. Yes, we were taught to protect first the men in the congregation, if a woman was accused of doing something horrible, she would easily and quickly be disfellowshipped and shunned by the rest of the congregation, forcing that woman to move out of the area. Basically, they protect the men in the organization. It is really something to be studied by trained professionals. How a group of men can get on a witness stand at the Australian Royal Commission and defend other men who blatantly abused their children or their children's friends, with evidence presented, and look the other way. Oh, well, Jehovah will handle it, as they go on their merry way back to their homes defending a multi-billion dollar corporation hoping these poor victims will not have the time, energy, or resources to take action against the JW giants. 

Most people who are caught up in the JW belief system and have no desire to leave and like it this way, that they can operate freely with little or no repercussions for their disgusting habits. One ex-JW YouTuber named Lloyd Evans going by the name of John Cedars, was one such Elder that abused his power in the congregation. He has freely admitted he was sexting girls and women in his Kingdom Hall and neighboring Kingdom Halls and becoming addicted to online porn sites when his wife caught him in the act. This guy brags about it online and in his blog and in his first book. This is the element you will find inside the JW organization and from some Elders who were ousted. They have that same smug personality with the females in their lives who are put down and berated and you rarely hear from their spouse. 

I went to the Lloyd Evans book signing to meet him and his wife, their first daughter was also with them. Evans arrived as any JW Circuit Overseer would when they came to visit the congregation. He strode up to the people there with confidence, he looked me directly in the eyes and smiled, shook my hand, and thanked me for coming. He did this to all the small groups of people gathered in his name to buy his book, get it signed, or just meet and chat with him. Evans brought in cases of books and began selling them taking cash from his followers and posed for photos. He gave a brief presentation, then had a Q&A session.

Evans never spoke a word to his wife. She was assigned her task of playing the humble servant dressed down in worn jeans and looked haggard, while she dressed up her young daughter as a bizarre plaything in an overly frilly dress like a pageant princess. I approached his wife Dijana as I would have approached any Circuit Overseer's wife who visited my Kingdom Hall. I welcomed her, thanked her for coming, traveling all this way from Croatia. Dijana was polite and appeared shy and she spoke a few words to me and others, and basically sat on the floor of the coffee shop tending to her daughter who played with toys on the floor.

This strange threesome trekked into a coffee shop in the LGBTQ community and a few other ex-JW YouTubers were there to tape the whole thing, one being Kameron Fader and Ex JW Fifth who pandered to Evans' every need. Everyone was friendly, maybe 15 people attended, at least what I saw myself, since it was already a crowded coffee shop and not all people were there to see Evans of course.

It was quite sad and shocking to me to see Evans in action. He and his wife had their script and assigned tasks and are the element bred out of  the Watchtower. I found that it's best to avoid the Elders and former Elders who claim to suddenly want to help us little women and men out here of the rank and file. Well, they were of the rank and file too, and have little knowledge of anything but how to hit that marketing button to plug into some fake subs and views to their boring YouTube videos and haul around boxes of their books to sell, oh, and to repeat myself, cash only please. 

Nope, that's not you dear reader, you are above all that and can think for yourself and do not need anyone to lead you out of the JW mindset. You can start to pick up those books about real people with real experiences both inside and outside of the JW organization. Start looking at non-JW YouTube videos to learn meditation, exercise and diet routines that support healthy emotions. I have a few suggested sites at the footer of this blog and I hope you take advantage of them. They helped me along my journey to personal freedom and I hope they can help you too.

I am a spiritual being that believes in a Higher Power and Creator
of heaven and earth without feeling the need to be tied down to any
particular religious belief system. It's called being humbled
by this vast universe we were born into.

#barbaraanderson

#jw  #jworg

Who Controls You?

If you are still an active Jehovah's Witness (JW), then you must honestly answer that you are not in control of your own thoughts, actions, or beliefs. You may feel secure in the fact that you are not in control and can't move right or left, but must face forward and be focused only on the JW organization. You may like to simply sit back and zone out and listen to the instructions from the JW literature and from the weekly public talks and the regional conventions that are held throughout the year at various locations only to find out that you are stagnate in life, having no real friends, a job instead of a career that you actually enjoy, and maybe a family that is only with you because of the ties within the congregation.

Other persons are literally starting to wake up to the reality that the Watch Tower Corporation knows little about how to guide you in this life, to prosper physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. You may think I am wrong in saying this. Well, compare where you were five years ago and where you are today. You are the same, right? Still doing the treadmill of weekly meetings, door-to-door recruitment activities or standing my a JW literature cart thinking this counts as preaching the good news of God's Kingdom to the public when you are just staring down at your phone reading text messages waiting for your mandated hours to be up and you can go home and sit and wait for the next JW meeting at the Kingdom Hall.

Where will you be in five years keeping up this same JW routine? You will be the same. You will be stagnate in life. You may think this is fine, I am still young - uh, right, that is the point. The JW leadership of men at the headquarters compound in the New York area, want to steal your youth and destroy any chance you may have in this life. Once you reach 30, 40, or 50, and see that your life meant nothing but pushing JW literature in peoples' hands, and your own life is stagnate, never growing, learning, prospering financially so you can work towards a safe, bright future, no, the Watch Tower has stolen your dreams from you and now that you have woken up at maybe 30, 40 or 50, you see you can no longer afford to go to college and may not have the strength to go to college. Even if you decide to go back to school and you are past 40 years old, no employer is hiring a college grad at 40, they are hiring that 21 year old or the 25 year old who completed college in a profession they chose.

How do you stop other people from controlling you? How do you start making your own decisions? Obviously, if you still live at home with your parents, you must obey them. However, it doesn't mean you can't start planning now for your future. High School and community colleges offer career counseling. Don't be afraid if your parents threaten you with eviction. Start now and think about forming some solid friendships outside of the JW culture. You can do this by confiding in a friend now, tell them your plans. You need a solid foundation in this life first, then you can explore other options once you are stable in your life.

If you are an adult and decide to think for yourself, it can be very scary. Seek out non-JW online self-help videos and websites. Seek out friends at work who may or may not be religious. Religion really has nothing to do with this. You can be a spiritual person and realize that a Grand Creator or Godlike Being made this earth and all life without joining any religious group.

Are you constantly watching the official JW Broadcasting videos? Have you noticed the large blue screen behind the speaker? It has wavy lines going through the constantly moving image that can cause a hypnotic effect upon the viewer as you listen to the speaker's rehearsed and scripted lines that are meant to draw in the viewer to start agreeing with the statements made. They show a video of someone crying to get the viewer to cry or show you a sad lonely person who needs JW literature crammed on bookshelves in order to be happy. They may show you a vision of their manufactured scene of the "new system", a future world they think they can promise will happen, but they can't. No human has power over your life or your death. No human can give you everlasting life on any paradise in heaven or on earth. Yet, this is what they are selling to you. Click off the JW channel and you will slowly start to think more rationally.

The blue colors, spheres, and images are commonly used by the U.S. Government,
the United Nations, and by the Freemasons, as well as in their logos as do the JWs.
That video screen behind the speaker is constantly in motion.
Image is from JW.ORG

The monthly JW broadcasting videos are designed to funnel you into a specific direction:

1) Calm, slow way of speaking.
2) Hypnotic background.
3) May include an experience from a third-world country to make you embarrassed about how much you have in the U.S. and in Western societies.
4) Get you to feel sad and start to cry over some poor JW in another part of the world having to walk barefoot for miles to a Kingdom Hall.
5) Then, their vision of everlasting life on an earthly paradise.
6) Finally, donate to their world-wide work.

Hey, I don't listen to those JW videos! I watch only commentary on them by an alleged ex-JW who views himself as an expert on the JW religion! Wrong. Turn off the commentary videos and websites too. They are designed to sucker you into their own world of mind control techniques, getting you hooked on their YouTube channels, clicking on their ads, and getting you hooked on every word that comes from the JW headquarters and somehow, making you feel you need to know what they are doing or saying at every moment. Trust me, you don't. You need to turn away from these types of YouTube channels and start focusing on that one person that needs to get moving and get on with their life, that being you, dear reader.

The JW organization never changes. They come up with new schemes, new videos, new gimmicks, all designed to make you think they are moving forward, when they are moving in circles, desperate to come up with more cash grab schemes from recycled gimmicks that worked decades ago and they update them for today's membership. They want you sitting home and afraid of the outside world unless you have JW literature in your hand or pushing a JW literature cart around a mall. Same with the constant ex-JW YouTube commentary videos that seem to get longer and longer in length, making you sit there for 2 hours or more listening to their opinions or simply insulting the Governing Body and their monthly broadcasts creating frustration inside of the viewer. Turn off these useless videos and start looking towards something that will bring you away from the mind controlling techniques used by Watch Tower and those who feel they have left yet are still obsessed with their every move. The JW leadership fuel ignorance and so do some ex-JW YouTubers, as if you can't think for yourself. 

Start a journal and get your thoughts on paper. Spend time with yourself away from interruptions for at least an hour per day. Ask yourself these questions. They may help sort things out for you and provide you with new clarity in your life:

1) What are you attracted to that you take for granted?

2) What repels you?

3) Where did your reactions to these questions come from in the first place? Where did your opinions come from? A mental barrier goes up with certain words with a negative association. Ask yourself why you react in a certain way to words, thoughts, or impressions. Not just related to the JW organization, but to life. Where did your world view come from?

4) Are you not open to other beliefs or opinions? Why can't men cry? Why do women have to be cooks and housewives? You get the message here.

5) How can you change your response to the paradym?

6) How does it affect your health and energy?

7) What is the path to greater awareness or to your own self-destruction?

Get to the root of why you feel a certain way. Is it taken for granted, something good or bad? Have a fresh perspective on things and form no opinions at first. Explore new things in your life away from hearing someone else give their own opinions, whether it's critical or not of the Watch Tower teachings. Don't let other people give you an opinion, start with looking objectively at an issue or policy of the Watch Tower organization. 

Don't keep looking for validation for what you choose to believe or not. Take things one step at a time, there is no rush to leave the JWs, but you can start distancing yourself by missing meetings, stop going out in their preaching working, take a step back and tell people you need to sort things out for yourself and take a sabbatical. Do not let threats of death and destruction sway your decision to leave the JWs, but again, there is no hurry. Work at your own pace.

The Bible and many belief systems are freely available to anyone. Fear is the first thing to set aside, including, being on your own. I was on my own when I first left the Watch Tower Society. I made my own way and continue to express myself in this blog and seek out new interests and read many books all the time. I have suggested YouTube channels in the footer of this blog from ex-JWs and non-JWs alike. I sometimes link to a good video from an ex-JW in my blog entries that I think are helpful.

A link to a very good NON-JW video to watch on this subject of mind control is below. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhQaFtYEz58

Once you stop being afraid to separate yourself from the JW mindset, you will find your life path starts to reveal itself to you. You will not regret it as you free yourself from the mind controlling effects of the JWs.

#mindcontrol  #matrix
#control   #freedom
#freedomfromwatchtower

Don't Wish It Were Easier, Wish You Were Better

Swimming upstream is never easy, but if you are a skilled and strong swimmer, you will conquer your goals.

It is difficult to even think about leaving the Jehovah's Witness (JW) organization, especially if you are already a baptized member of its society and vowed to be devoted to the top ruling class called the Governing Body (GB). Funny how their terminology always involves the body. As in the Elder Body, the group of men who run each congregation of JWs. Why the body? Because you, the rank and file are the members of that body. You do all the work while the body stays fixed. Without your arms and legs, you would be immobile. You could not feed yourself, earn a living, or get about on your own, you would be disabled and have to rely on other people to keep you alive.

The GB and the Elder Body are the same way. They need you to keep them alive by using your money, time, and resources to keep them very wealthy and thriving for years to come while you suffer and toil and never reach the end of that swim upstream. It is never easy to leave the JWs, and if anyone tells you it is, they are lying to you or were never really "in" the faith, as they say. They could not care less, perhaps they married a JW and fell into the organization and don't have any real emotional ties to it and can walk away at anytime. That's fine. But many of us were born and raised in the religious movement, and simply walking out those Kingdom Hall doors was a major, life-shattering moment.

Yes, I did it on my own. I conducted online research of the history of the JW religious movement with my only outlet being the JW message board where I could talk freely under a different name, and express my viewpoints and ask questions. The message board is still in existence, at: https://www.jehovahs-witness.com/

You need some sort of outlet when you are planning your escape from the BODY. You also need that one moment that will push you out the door for good, and yes, sometimes you have to leave someone behind. The JWs love to say how they are not a cult, yet they behave like one, so what's the difference. There isn't one. 

Perhaps this is your one issue that will get you to become a better person, to step up to the plate and take a stand by finding that courage to leave the JWs. Below is an excerpt from an article in The Guardian online newspaper. Click on the title for the complete story.

Child sexual abuse inquiry considers Jehovah's Witnesses UK investigation: Independent Inquiry into Child Sexual Abuse says there have been 'a considerable number' of complaints

Excerpt: Louise Goode, a former Jehovah's Witness, says she left the faith because of its responses to allegations of child sexual abuse. "Since leaving ... I have become an activist and my aim is to ensure that all abuse cases or suspected safeguarding issues are reported immediately to the police rather than being dealt with in a secretive way in house by three elders who have had no safeguarding training."

Louise Goode did form her own group called JW Support Foundation, and that was her way to becoming "better" when leaving the JWs. However, please do not think there are any rules for leaving, no one way is the right way, it's your way that is the right way.  I am not saying you have to form a group or organization, or do anything you are not ready for. Do not rush the process of leaving the JWs. But you can become a better person for taking on that difficult challenge of leaving the JW organization forever.

Blogging helped me to get my story out there since that was the best way for me to communicate. Other people have their own style, but doing nothing is fine too. Your simply walking out of those Kingdom Hall doors and never returning is a major step, and is by no means considered doing nothing. That is doing a lot, it's a huge first step. A point to remember is to work on the person inside of you first, seek out self-help books and videos, some suggestions are in the footer of this blog. Don't just crowd your mind with religious doctrines, think about your entire lifestyle. Are you eating well, sleeping well, and doing well on your job? Focus forward and become a better person inside, and the rest will fall into place.

No, it is not easy, but you can do it with a little time and planning. Share only your most deep inner thoughts with a trusted non-JW friend [I emphasize that]. I am sorry to tell you this, but even if you believe you have the best JW friend in the world, even if they are your spouse, they will turn on you. Why? It's their indoctrination into that JW religion who pretends to not be a cult. No one religious or political group has all the answers in this life. Life's purpose is the journey, not being stagnate waiting for "the end" of this system of things like JWs have you believe. They have all the answers so there is no need for further research, learning, or study. That is one major red flag right there. No one should tell you to only read their literature and only believe what they tell you to believe.

What are the JW Leadership willing to tolerate? Every crime imaginable.
They sweep its worst offenses under the carpet, even allowing
certain members of the Elder Body to walk out of the congregation,
"forced" [ha ha] to write a disassociation letter,
and never facing a real court of law.

Explore the world around you without limitations. Perhaps look to non-JW co-workers and ask what groups they belong to, maybe get a gym membership or join a running club, something that gets you out of your head and into the...what? Into the BODY, your own body, and those walls inside of your brain will finally fall away and you can see life for what it means for you, individually.

Do what makes you happy. Harm no one on your journey.

#exJW

#theguardian

#freeyourselfnow